Apologies. It's been a while. It's all go here. Squiblet has made the transition to her big girl bed, we've taken down the massive green room divider which was cutting our open plan living place into two so now our house looks like our house again and I don't know...things just feel different now it's all done!
My friend dropped us off from a trip to the beach and Squiblet had fallen asleep in the car. Usually she will never transition from car to cot without screaming and crying and having a horrendous tantrum so I popped her on the bed while I went to get her car seat. When I got back she was so close to sleep that I just stroked her head and left her there. I then sat there for the next 1 1/2 hours (only leaving for a moment to get my Kindle) as I was worried she might fall out. She looked like a beautiful peaceful angel with the sunlight falling on her hair from under the curtains. I took a photo and showed it to Mama when she got home. And that was it...Squiblet saw the photo and never looked back. Cue a long bath time with Mama while I frantically hoovered, took down the cot and rearranged the furniture!
Squiblet seeing photos or videos of herself seems to be incredibly powerful. There is a video of her on her trampoline where she says "more strawberries!" and for at least a month she couldn't go on her trampoline without stopping and saying "more strawberries!" She is a most excellent mimic which most of the time is funny, but I wasn't quite sure the other day when we walked past our local tramp eating a sandwich and she sat down a few metres on and started tucking into her own pretend sandwich! All I need to do now is somehow get a video of her using the potty and then maybe she will use the potty. The tricky part there is getting her to use it in the first place!
The celebration day was magical. Squiblet was in her element being the centre of attention. She sat in the Judge's chair and when we said could everyone come up for pictures she shouted "come on everybody!" with an alarming air of authority. We were so lucky that lots of the special people in her life could be there with us. There were a few missing but they were there in spirit! I don't think it would have been nearly such a celebration without our nearest and dearest sharing the day. The Judge was so kind and so good with her. Squiblet got to stamp the court crest onto a sticker and then put it on her certificate. She loves a sticker! And then she got to roll it up! And put a ribbon on! And be given a bear! It doesn't get much better than that. Although she was pretty clear that she was "not really sure" about the Judge's wig!
We are back in our routine now and one thing I've noticed is that the gap between Squiblet's public and home behaviour is widening. Her confidence at home is growing and growing. She will sing the whole of Baa Baa Black Sheep or Dingle Dangle Scarecrow and dance and giggle if she's around her family and friends, but take her to play group or music class and she sits and clings on and barely participates. It does make me worry because I don't think she's being true to herself and what she can do and consequently she doesn't enjoy things as much as she could. I know she's only 2. I know it's only been 8 months. I just want to help. I'm a teacher and I know how those children get lost when they are at school because our education system is so pro extrovert. But that's my issue. There's nothing about her which is introverted when she's at home, or even if she's out with friends. I don't know. I probably worry too much. I just want her to be happy and true to herself. At her music class it's weird though because she will sit and cling on for most of it, but the second the teacher brings out something interesting she's up and shouting "I want it!" or "Mummy stand up!" So it's a curious mixture of completely disengaged or horribly bossy. For the first time I was actually slightly embarrassed by her behaviour. I don't think it would embarrass me if she was consistent! But the mixture of shy and dictatorial was curious and tricky to manage. I should stop worrying. I know.
So it's all go! It's all change. Our baby is growing up. My proud parent moment of the week is when she walked up to a lamp post and said "that is 's', that is 'o', that is 'l'" and pointed at the letters of the brand which were written on the lamp post. I thought she only knew one and that was the first letter of her name. I was so impressed! And I am by no means a "Flashcard Mom" she just has a few books with the alphabet in or alphabet themes and alphabet decorations in her room. It's mad what they learn when you aren't paying attention. We were in the garden the other day and I overheard Squiblet say "oop...there's a bumbly old bee" and it made me smile because she is getting more and more like her Mummy (and Mama) each day.
I am mostly getting very excited about Christmas, my 30th birthday and Squiblet's big party but not necessarily in that order.
Much excitement to come.
Love to you all.